You Just Don't Get It!!!!!!

One year left (or less)...and you'll be Away from me! And this doesn't seem bothering you.

I'm upset, because of the fact that you're leaving me.

Also....

I'm disappointed, because you'll never understand how hard this is to me!!!

越来越不懂。。

我们之间，还是我们吗？我开始迷惑了！

当两个人开始你不懂我；我不懂你的时候，之间还会剩下些什么？我开始害怕了！

当‘关心’是用来伤害对方的武器后，还要来做什么？我开始质疑了！

当对你的想念，换来的是你的嫌弃，还要继续想念下去吗？我心开始痛了！

当约定只是一个随口说说就忘的话语，还要继续执著的守护着它吗？我心开始挣扎了！

当我在你心中已经没有比亲人，朋友和‘上网’来得重要的时候，你还真的是爱着我的吗？我不该怀疑吗？

当我心中的不安，被你视若无睹的时候，你知道我有多恨自己为什么会输给你的冷漠！我开始觉得累了！

当我的出现不再让你觉得期待和高兴，反而只是烦厌的时候，我还应该留下吗？我开始犹豫了！

当爱换来的只是伤害的时候，我们还要再爱下去吗？我实在不敢想下去！


我承认。。我是越来越不懂得爱了！！！

无法接受！！

我实在不能忍受我的父母被这般对待！他们原可安安稳稳，开开心心的过日子，从来都不用因为觉得亏欠谁而过意不去！就因为我！是我让他们觉得欠了你，是我！如果你真的那么讨厌我，就对我一个人就好了！他们不欠你，是我欠了你！什么不好的，让你不开心的，你只管怨我，骂我！我绝对不会说什么！就清你对我那善良的父母亲好一点。。

我不知道我做错了什么，让你那么讨厌我。我一直都很努力的做一个你会喜欢的人，没想到却让那么你难过。。你告诉我好不好？要怎么做，你才会变回那位对我热情招待，给我暖暖笑容的你？？也许是我太敏感了！我也希望真的是我想太多了！因为。。。。

我。。不想讨厌你！！

*~As It Is In Heaven~*

A touching Swedish film that i watched, it's basicly about a famous ochestra conductor went back to his hometown to adress his childhood grievances and become the conductor of a church choir. This film was awarded as Best Foreign Film in 2005 and has been reviewed as "one of the best things to come out of Sweden since Abba". To be honest, it has been a long time since i've been impressed by foreign movie....

This is one of the song in the movie that touch me so much. I bet anyone who once listen to it will fall for it...

The one that is singing in this vidoe is one of the amateur singer from the choir group in the village that trained by the conductor...

A voice from Heaven!! Don't you think so? :)

Of course there are many other songs in this movie are SUPA!!! So WATCH IT! It's inspirational!! Love it!!

P/S: Eva, since you're so free now, why don't spend sometime watch this movie?haha..U'll like it!

What a girl wants??

Guys! Have you ever really made ur deepest thought about what a gal wants? And wat are the things she expect to have from u? 5c---> 1. Cash 2. Credit Card 3. Cars 4. Condo 5. Certificate ? OR Gucci? Dior? Armani? Channel? NO!!!! Not every gal looks at that! Of course, i admit that having all these stuff are Great, but what really make things work between two ppl is the
" "......

• Feeling of secureness

Gals are definitely more sentitive than guys, thats why gals always need you to show them how important they are in your little heart. Don't be so naive to think that gals will understand everything, NEVER! How can we know if you don't open ur mouth and let us know? We can't read mind, even if we can, we're not always right! Anyway, according to some research, most of the break up reason for gals is lack of secureness.....I'm not kidding!

• Show them that u cares

Absolutely! Gals NEED that! However, we gals expect to get something special from those who we cares, hoping that we're extraordinary to our love one! So guys...don't be selfish to let her know how important she is....Takes sometimes to talk to her, at least ask her how is she? Anything happened today? As long as u let her know u still love her.....P/S: Never try to apathetic her...she can feel it!

• Console her whenever she's depress

Whenever gals are cheerless, all she need is a person who she can cry to..YOU! should be the one there! Having you to pat her back, listen to her feeling or tell her everythings all right and she's not alone! You wouldn't know how much that helps! Most of the times gals like to be spoiled and cuddle...

• Ur hand

When she's out with you, always hold her hand. That will make her feel protected, and she knows that you don't want her to leave you coz you never let go her hand!

• Ur HUGzzz

A hugz can covered a thousand words! It shorten the distance between two person!

GuyS! Hope you learn something here!!!!!

世界上最远的距离
　　不是 生与死的距离
　　而是 我站在你面前
　　你不知道我爱你

世界上最远的距离
　　不是 我站在你面前
　　你不知道我爱你
　　而是 爱到痴迷
　　却不能说我爱你

世界上最远的距离
　　不是 我不能说我爱你
　　而是 想你痛彻心脾
　　却只能深埋心底

世界上最远的距离
　　不是 我不能说我想你
　　而是 彼此相爱
　　却不能够在一起

世界上最远的距离
　　不是 彼此相爱
　　却不能够在一起
　　而是明知道真爱无敌
　　却装作毫不在意

世界上最远的距离
　　不是 树与树的距离
　　而是 同根生长的树枝
　　却无法在风中相依

世界上最远的距离
　　不是 树枝无法相依
　　而是 相互了望的星星
　　却没有交汇的轨迹

世界上最远的距离
　　不是 星星之间的轨迹
　　而是 纵然轨迹交汇
　　却在转瞬间无处寻觅

世界上最远的距离
　　不是 瞬间便无处寻觅
　　而是 尚未相遇
　　便注定无法相聚

世界上最远的距离
　　是鱼与飞鸟的距离
　　一个在天,一个却深潜海底

二月十四情人节快到了！祝福所有天下有情人，甜甜蜜蜜，长长久久！

游子心情~*

我想这篇文章也许也写出不少远在他乡的朋友的心情吧！请容许我将对家乡和过去的思念毫无保留的抒发出来，同时减轻我万般思绪藏于心中的煎熬。。。



独在异乡为异客，每逢佳节倍思亲---〉王维




独自在纽西兰生活已有八个月了~*



回想起不久前的片段：



MH131---〉踏上国际航班的那一刻开始，我跟以往的日子挥手说再见，从此步入崭新的生活，开创未知的未来。下定决心到离家好几十万英里远的地方升学，真的需要很大的勇气，当初我心里不断挣扎着，对那所谓未来更是充满恐惧感。怎么说好呢？虽然忐忑不安了整整两个月，我还是决定展翅，飞向不一样的天空。即使已有离别的准备，走的那一刻我依然不断的回头看，看我深爱的家人和朋友，顿时留下止不住的泪水，多少的不舍和牵挂，那苦涩的眼泪代我述说了一切。。


MAS only flight to Auckland~*




慢慢的，从陌生到熟悉，从孤独到习惯孤独，从伤心难过到坚强勇敢，我开始适应这里的生活了。日子一天天的过，我常常在想，我真的做好长大的心理准备了吗？每天学习着成长，活的像个成人，负起照顾好自己的责任。小时候觉得长大应该不回太难，可是现在，每天面对着许许多多的分叉路，对这些选择不禁感到厌倦且害怕，有时候真觉得再也撑不下去了。。心里百感交集，像个孩子似的号啕大哭了起来！想起以往总有爸妈的呵护，如今也只能靠自己了！我。。不得不收起眼泪，坚强的见招拆招！






也许是因为太想念以前的日子吧！围绕在家人和朋友之间，幸福得不得了！难免在面对困难时，倍感无助，胆子一下子变得很小很小。不过，这种依赖的习惯一定得改，不然一辈子都长不大，总不能老期盼别人来保护自己吧，也该懂得自己保护自己了！站起来，与懦弱抗战！难过流泪不算什么，只要要紧牙根，继续往前走。。别因为一时的拙折，而放弃任何梦想！



就这么说定了！每个人都努力的往各自的梦想奔去，我也不能落后！






最后，我要特别提起一位一直在我受到挫折时，鼓励我，帮助我的人---伟鸿ko ko（Hun）！谢谢你，像是冬天里的太阳，总带给我无限的温暖！要真的问我在纽西兰最开心的事是什么，不用怀疑，就是----〉让我遇到你！你向我证明了一件事，真心的付出，总会看到结果！